Withholding Your Love
When you withhold love from the people you love, what is it you are gaining? Are you withholding in order to protect yourself? Are you holding onto resentment or regret? How long will you continue to hold onto these feelings? Are you doing it because you feel you are right? How does it feel to be right? Does it make you feel strong, proud, confident or some other emotion?
Choosing to be right is the old paradigm of communication and only creates distance, separation, upset, and keeps your-self under control; rather than dealing with how you really feel; a loss for the connection to the person you love.
How many people do you choose to withhold your love from? If you think about it, there are probably at least half a dozen people you are withholding love from. If you are not feeling utter peace and joy in the presence of those you care about, you are withholding love; even in the subtlest capacity.
Withholding your love keeps your body in an armored state; your chest becomes tighter, your breathing is more shallow, your body feels rigid and anxious.
When you’re upset at the person you love the most, and holding on to anger in your body while taking your time to get over the anger, having a hard time releasing the anger, or hoping eventually it will go away, no matter what you will be withholding your love from this person, AND withholding love from yourself as well. When you are not present to your anger or upset, it may feel like it is the other persons fault. But in fact, you are the only person who can forgive and let this go.
What do you do when you are upset at the person you love?
Do you take hours, weeks, months, or years to forgive?
When you have upset or anger, do you decide to date someone else, hang out with your friends instead, ….
Let Drama Fade
Often times, when there is drama going on around you, with clients, friends or others, without knowing it, it can effect our marriage or significant relationship(s) and cause us to feel distant, in need to take space to be alone and cleanse ourselves from the interactions with others.
When speaking to those who are going through something intense, if they are dear to you and you care for them, the best thing you can do to help them sometimes is to pull back and walk away giving them time to process and heal in their own time. Sometimes we have to let friends or people we love go in order to continue in our own growth and progress, and to keep our marriages and relationships happy.
Every single person we interact with every single day, whether through texting, skype, the phone, email, instant messaging, Facebook, twitter, video chat or in person all effects us on some level. And how sensitive we are to their drama, to their pull on our energy or sadness at their distance will affect our most significant partnerships. It may show up as though the partnership is having difficulty, but in fact its something else. Not everyone has words to express these experiences. Some people choose to keep their outside experiences to themselves. Some partners choose to share everything. However, what you share or what you don’t share will bleed into the very important aspects of your life.
Give your friend or client, etc a break and without feeding into their need for your continued attention, just separate. Don’t respond. Let time pass. Let them heal, and in the process, take care of your own energetic needs. Keep your energetic space clean and be a leader in ending the drama; just don’t give into it. Perhaps they will reach out to you again later and realize what they were doing, perhaps they will never learn, or perhaps they will come back later and apologize.
When you take care of your relationships that are going on around you, you are also taking care of the relationship to yourself and to your most significant loved one(s).
As some of you know, I’ve been getting back into my love for crystals since I was a child. I’ve been collecting new crystals for my alter, my own healing and for clients. And I placed an order for a few necklaces from Singapore, with one beautiful light blue mala as a gift. And the woman who was selling these had asked me out of the blue if I would know anyone who would like a few charms from another culture with a foreign language on it, and a Temple I had never heard of. I had accepted and said if I couldn’t use them, that I knew friends who could. Well, the package arrived today (after about 3 weeks since this conversation and order). I ended up opening the gift package first, and what came out of the bag blew my eyes wide open. As a Tantra Practitioner, I like surprises and can certainly handle them, and today I was a little stunned and am still laughing about it. I pulled out of the neatly packaged bag with bows and tissue paper, a set of 7 or 8 tiny little ligham charms, or in English, little tiny charms that look like penises. They are a brass or other metal with little inscriptions on the sides, and from some high energy Temple I don’t know where, but I’ll certainly do some research to find out. The next surprise were these large wooden size lingham’s (penises) nicely packaged in a sealed plastic bag, to use for beading or other such crafting. And 2 Phra Rahu Dragon Charms.
I suppose this woman did not know the depths of my Tantric Practice, but these little gifts from the universe are a perfect metaphor and symbol that I am doing the work I am supposed to be doing, and a nice little boost to the kundalini sexual energy as well!
Rahu is the Dark Goddess in Buddhism, like Kali is to Hindu’s. In Jyotish Astrology there is the Rahu and Ketu period one must overcome in each person’s lifetime. Coming to the end of this period is a celebration, as this is something I myself am doing right now, but while going through it, it does take a LONG time, and honoring the darkness of life, and surrendering to those who help support it, is an act many Budddhists and Hindu’s understand as a natural part of life.
Here is one similar to the metal lingham that look like the ones I have. You’ll have to wait until you come visit with me again to get a closer look! It fits perfectly with my Kali, Ganesh and Tree of Life Charm necklace!
Thank you Universe!
Here are some links reflective of the beads and gifts:
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The Benefits of an Arousing City
This past weekend I did my 3rd weekend of the ILP in New York City. I never felt so aroused just from going to a different location in my life. Being in the energy of the city awoke my energy to the vibration of who I really am and what I really want to feel. My passionate self is vibrant, expressive, open, playful and creative and being in New York I was re-awoken to this state of being. My shakti and kundalini energy got aroused to its natural state and who I became in the brief time while I was there, was truly excited about life. Not that I was not excited before, but being in New York brought my zest for life alive and it reminded me that it is definitely where I want to be.
The Costs of a Suppressed City
When coming home to Philadelphia again, I was reminded of the differences of the city, and there are many differences from NY to Philadelphia. The food in Philadelphia is fabulous, the music is unbelievable, the orchestra and parks are wonderful. However, the energy of the city itself is quite different. When I think of Philadelphia, I think of suppression, a heaviness, a weight of dissatisfaction, frustration and a large amount of people who appear to be miserable or for the most part uncomfortable being in their own bodies. People in Philadelphia can be cool, but it takes really getting past their armoring before they will let themselves open up. And, even that doesn’t always do it. Being reminded to breathe and let go in every moment isn’t easy when you are pressured to go to work, drive in traffic and then come home to your family. It’s no wonder people in Philadelphia are suppressed. There is a distinct energy that surrounds the entire city, and everyone who lives in or near it are affected. People can become bitter, angry, sad, depressed, hostile, disinterested in life, running to outlets to make themselves feel better and living a passion-less life.
Who You Are Is Where You Be
I am in Philadelphia, and my family is here and I am not in a position to relocate at the present moment. However, being in Philadelphia, in many aspects I become like what the energy it is we are surrounded by. You become who you hang around, and that even includes the vibration of the environment you are surrounded by. The vibration of Philadelphia is heavy, and I am an empath and intuitive. It would make my light body turn heavy, and my zest for life get dull. And, I am committed to living a powerful, juicy, and sexy life, and who I really am is someone who loves to be fully expressed.
It only reminds me of the openness in NY city and how much it feels like home to me.
After this past weekend, I making a committed effort to make myself available to do sessions regularly in NY city, having a *blast* at night, doing everything I can to make sure I get there every month, and keeping my energy as clear as possible while I am in Philly! And, then sharing who I am, and bringing it to NY, and coming home to Philly regularly, will allow that sexy New York energy to be flourished here. It could create a whole new world in our “City of Love”!
(For Those of you with prior experience, please skip this post and scroll below).
It takes a very brave and committed person to take on the challenge of learning the Advanced Tantra Arts; and for those of you who have never had basic experience with Spiritual Healing or Spiritual concepts, we will need to start there – i.e. Spiritual Healing Sessions that do not consist of the Tantric Arts (the basics of Tantra), in an effort to be more prepared for the Advanced Tantric Arts offered on this website.
Tantra Practices Before Sexual Healing & Intimacy Therapy (Advanced Tantra Sessions):
You will need to learn the philosophies and concepts of energy, breathing, what the chakras are and how we can use them to expand our body and soul, body work for opening the flow of energy in your entire being, energy healing for clearing energy blocks or emotional stress, yoga and what the basics of yoga are, what it means to be present, how to create consciousness within oneself and to use your emotions, stresses and pains as a guide for your growth, what your emotional and mental blocks are, the value of working through them, some Spiritual Psychotherapeutic processing, what it means to be authentic, basic meditation, and more!
I will also offer breathing practices training and meditation guidance as part of this training.
You may visit this blog for more information on these Spiritual Healing Sessions; however, I will be updating this blog to reflect this post for your better understanding. The fees are less for these sessions, and their main purpose is to prepare you to take the Advanced Tantra Sessions seriously. The new website will describe all the Spiritual forms of Healing I offer, for those of who who qualify for these services. (See post below for information on the new website). Please Note: The more gentle Healing Sessions are just AS powerful as the Advanced Tantra Sessions and are just as important. It takes a ready and willing soul to dive into the depths of Tantra, and Tantra is not just about sex; it is about the entire person!
I will not forbid you from receiving the more erotic or Advanced Tantra Services, however, some basic principles will need to be practiced to get the most out of these sessions and in order to feel all of its benefits. Basic Practices and Advanced Practices can be incorporated within one session; but being committed to a series of sessions with me over a period of time will allow you the greatest benefit and the most expansion than just coming once with no prior experience at all.
Without the energy of love, intimacy cannot happen. Allowing the sessions to move into a space of trust, respect, kindness, and presence allows the love to flow; and in essence the intimacy can be built on from here. Without love, intimacy cannot exist. Without love, intimacy is false, and based on control or fear. The only way to move energy and connect with another human being and oneself is through kindness and the presence of love.
Many people try to rush intimacy or expect it to happen without moving their own energy, or the energy of their beloved. Intimacy cannot happen on its’ own. It must be built upon, the energy must be cleared and connected, and calm kindness must be present with acceptance, stillness, and an open heart.
Many people have desires for gratification. They want pleasure and to be stimulated. However, gratification, pleasure and stimulation cannot happen just by itself.Gratification, pleasure and stimulation cannot happen without making an effort to work on the energy it takes to create the love that’s underneath the desire and pleasure. There is no quick fix. There is no instant satisfaction. Love cannot happen without putting your heart into it.
All sessions are based on love and true presence. If you want a quick fix, or are looking for sex, and cannot see the value of presence, then I am not the right practitioner for you.
I am Asttarte. You may experience feelings and emotions that are uncomfortable for you. When you are in my presence there may come an experience where you feel emotions that make you feel uncomfortable and you are not familiar with, or you do not know how to handle. As you spend time with me, I become your mirror. I may mirror different issues within you that come to the surface because they need to be released and healed. I am not here to judge you or criticize you. I will accept your feelings unconditionally. If I notice any anger, frustration, irritation, control, resistance, or sadness then I may suggest for you to do some deeper breathing to help you move into these areas. I may also suggest for you to do some emotional clearing with me. If you are not able to feel comfortable in following my guidance, and do not allow yourself to go into these feelings, then you may not experience the session to its full capacity, or walk out confused and possibly dissatisfied.
I am an empath and sometimes feel feelings you are experiencing, as this is one of my many ways to help you. I use this gift as my guidance to support you in taking your journey to the next level.
My biggest wish for you is that you allow yourself to be vulnerable with me, so that I can help you in the best way possible. My sessions are based on love, and this love may be all you need to experience true bliss within. I am a guide and a support, and I will always do my best to support you and help you in any way I can.